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I lost track of myself for a bit there and it was a hard pit to crawl out of. I felt pretty alone no matter how kind some were to me. Depression is an asshole sometimes.
But I think I pulled myself back out of my pit of despair. I think the main reason I always do is the realization that I have the power to. If I decide to get stuck and mope about things that are negative in my life or unfulfilled expectations I will stay in that hole. If I focus on what I CAN do and understand that I have the power to change my own life, the rest follows. The only person I need to focus my energy on is myself. And if I'm happy, everyone around me will be too.

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Sorvena
16:01 Jun 27 2019

I let my son read this and he smiled.
He said that sounds a lot like him.

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Ylvax
11:59 Jul 08 2019

Awh glad I could make someone smile

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Had a wonderful night stargazing with husband.. and I slept amazing. I feel all airy and dreamy today so work should be fun. I feel like I'm floating but I'm not lol
So I'm going to enjoy doing my job and daydreaming about my next tattoo design to work on .. while my co-workers chat about other people nonstop.
I enjoy it, I'm pretty good at tuning nonsense out. 👽

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Crowscat
19:03 Jun 06 2019

See told ya...quality time with the hubby gurl:) gotta be a good thing now right? Hehehe

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Ylvax
17:35 Jun 07 2019

Yeah . As long as he's in the mood for it. He's a stubborn one lol

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I don't even know how to relax and enjoy free time anymore. It's either work or classwork or housework and the only fun I have is with hubby. I guess I need to make time for hobbies but I don't even feel like it anymore.
It's like I have an endless list of things I need to get done and I can't relax until it's over...which will be when I die I guess lol

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Crowscat
21:44 Jun 05 2019

Not true. You'll be done with school b4 you know it and look back and go "ahhh so worth it" You will get there. I promise. Look on the bright side...you finally can look forward to spending quality time with hubby because that's your relief from it all:) Enjoy it! You deserve it totally xoxo

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AbsintheandBlood
21:58 Jun 05 2019

How much housework can two adults have ? When both work and only one goes to classes the other should do most of the housework, at least half of the housework.

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Ylvax
22:47 Jun 05 2019

I know, I'm probably over-exaggerating.. it'll be worth it

He does the cooking so I don't mind doing the rest. I'm done making food lol...for the most part

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AbsintheandBlood
01:10 Jun 06 2019

You got the short end of the deal.

I would love to just work and do the cooking, letting someone else do all the cleaning.

Pace yourself and all things should work out.

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Ylvax
16:10 Jun 06 2019

He does help with other things.
Even if not I am ocd about how I clean and fold laundry so no one wins unless I'm doing it.

I know, I'm a bit special lol
I pace it all out throughout the week so it's fine

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